Once I open the flood gates, I guess it is hard to shut up. 🙂 (See number 2.)
1. I Hate Stealth
Before you start to call me a Rogue/Feral Druid hater or a PvP noob (which I am), let me explain.
It is not classes with stealth I dislike, it is ME actually USING stealth. It is most of why my Rogue and Druid are so under-utilized. I have become reminded of this fact by my recent foray into the Shado-Pan daily quests, where stealthing around while sabotaging the Mantid is a daily theme.
When I was young, I had really bad insomnia and nightmares. I remember, many times, waking in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep, and for quite some time making a habit of watching the old 60’s Batman show in the wee hours. It got bad enough that finally my parents put a TV in my room for when I could not sleep.
One of those recurring nightmares was trying to hide from someone chasing me down. No matter how well I hid, no matter how dark a corner I found, they always caught me…
So that is how I feel when I stealth around. It is horrible, cuz I always feel like I am going to be spotted, and when I do get spotted it scares the living crap out of me. ><
2. I Am the Biggest Chicken
I am this very strange combination of introverted and extroverted. I am very shy to start, in unknown or new situations. But once I get more comfortable with my surrounding and when I get to know someone, it tends to be difficult to shut me up. 😉
This means that ice breakers are murder for me.
The current problem lies in my interest in someone – someone I can not for the life of me get up the nerve to ask out. I keep making excuses. I keep insisting to myself the timing is not right. I keep telling myself everything except my true worry – rejection.
I think that is what it really comes down to, honestly – rejection is that initial hurdle to an easy, downhill slope. Once the conversation is started, I have it from there. But it is like there is this big fallen tree in the middle of the road…
Or I am chicken. 🙂
3. No NaNoWriMo for Me
I fancy myself a writer. At certain times in my life, I have fancied myself a writer of novels – none of which have ever completely reached fruition, mind you.
These days, I have set such things aside, and I merely write what works for me, which happens to be in the form of short stories about my various gaming characters – most importantly, Effy. Until such time as that changes – no NaNoWriMo for me.
Instead, I would prefer to keep working on my blog and my stories. And I will probably participate in the IntPiPoMo.
In fact, if I could somehow write a post everyday for the month of November, that would be something!
Let’s make that a goal.