School is out, and it is my summer vacation. But instead of having more time, it seems I have less.
I went full time at work the week after school let out, which means I am just starting my third week as full time. A few weeks before, my work companion whom I have job-shared and worked with since starting at my job put in her notice. Her last day came far too quickly – the week before my semester ended. So now, I am full time and doing everything we both used to do, trying to train her replacement, trying to keep my boss and the guys in the warehouse organized, trying to finish projects, and trying to keep up with our busy season.
I am so stressed out.
In my infinite wisdom, I decided to work on an e-Marketing certificate over the summer. I told myself several times to take the summer off, but I did not listen. Most of these evening classes are just one night and have no homework or grading system – I pretty much just have to show up. But between being stressed at work and having long days that do not end until 9pm when I have one of these classes, I basically come home and shut down. Accomplishing anything at home has been… difficult, because my ambition is nil and my energy ranks in the negative.
I am so tired.
A huge glutton for punishment, that is what I am.
I have a huge list of things I need to accomplish. My blog, and writing in general, sit very high on that list – I have an extensive list of posts I WANT to make. I have a number of projects at work that are important, but being in our busy season and already working 40 hours per week makes them nearly impossible right now. I have some personal goals as well, particularly to do with learning to better use social media (both personally and professionally), learning WordPress more in-depth, and some random writing goals I have.
I really, really need to get back to writing early in the morning. It felt so good to do that – and be writing regularly.
Add this all to the fact that I have once more expanded the scope of my school goals… Meaning, I am already working on an Associate’s degree in Technical Communication, and I am also working on a certificate in Web Design as my minor. Now I am working on this e-Marketing certificate. And I want to add to all of that a certificate in Graphic Design.
It just makes sense to me… Technical writing, web design, graphic design, and e-marketing all work together coherently in my mind and I am using all of them to some degree in my current position. Not to mention, I want to use them MORE in my current position – that is the ultimate goal of both my boss and myself.
I think I just want to go to school for the rest of my life. Partly because I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.
Right now, my goal is to pull myself out of my current funk and get myself motivated again. I think to accomplish that, though, I need to get myself to a happier, more stable point at work. Otherwise, I am just going to keep coming home, plopping down with my laptop, and staring at the screen or playing Hearthstone until I numbly shuffle off to bed.
One thing I have accomplished is updating my blog’s theme (again). I like the responsive nature of this theme – meaning it looks good on the web, on a tablet, or a smartphone. (Thank you, Web Coding classes, for teaching me about responsive design.) But the only reason I have updated it is because one of my e-Marketing classes is focused on WordPress. So since I was sitting there, ahead of everyone else because my blog already exists and is live, I was able to fiddle with some settings.
I have realized one thing about myself in regards to my blog… I need to stop committing myself to long periods of posting. I did well for a while with the #AltAppreciation but I fell behind and could not bring myself to blog for weeks because I felt so guilty. Then, I did well with the #WoW30 Challenge but once more I fell behind. I tried to catch up, but finally got so far behind I could not look at my blog.
Finally, more than halfway through May, I am making this post. It has been an effort of will, more effort than it should have been. My goal is consistency, but I need to reach that consistency by my own means, not by forcing myself into a schedule. I think the consistency needs to come in my writing, not so much in my posting. If I write more, then more posts will inevitably follow. It cannot work the other way around.
So that is an update on me.